My heart hurts and the tears are flowing. I feel like I’ve been handling Art’s passing better and better every day and then…blindsided! Totally blindsided!
As I started getting ready for bed tonight, I went into the kitchen and took some Excedrin for a really bad headache. As I drank the water I looked out the kitchen window to see an amazing full moon and suddenly the song, “Somewhere Out There” began to play in my mind and when it got to “Someone’s thinking of me, and loving me tonight”, I began to cry and felt overwhelmed with loss.
How can I do so well for several days and then from out of nowhere, finding one of his car magazines, feeling the wind as I’m walking to the mailbox, watching “our birds” in the yard, or even seeing this beautiful full moon start the tears flowing and the pain? I’m so grateful that I still feel him with me and feel his love, but I miss him so very much.
As the song says, I suppose we are both still “wishing on the same bright star”, but there’s a huge difference now. He is flying up there among them while I’m here looking up. Somewhere out there…..
Love and Hugs,
I can’t imagine the tremendous pain you are experiencing. I just hope it gets easier every day. It must seem like an eternity at times but has been such a short time. Sending my love.
Thanks, Irene. It does get better each day and the crys are further between. I have had tremendous support from family and friends. I have the beautiful quilt you made for me in my bedroom so I think of your love and kindness every day. Sending love and hugs.
It comes in waves, sometimes the seas are calm…
Those of us whom have lost a loved one know all too well the feelings you are experiencing.
Prayers of comfort.
I know you too go through this. As bad as losing a spouse is, the death of one of our children has to be the absolute worst. We’re supposed to go first. I love the quote “a heart that grieves is a heart that has been loved.” You and Laraine are such amazing people and I am so sorry for your loss. I’m so grateful that you are in my life. Even from a distance you have been an unbelievable support. Sending loveand hugs.